I can’t help, time feels like change for me. Not a subtle one.
A profound change. Yep. Another round.
Change requires an honest look onto my own life and Ive been making an effort, to learn to stay steady, to focus on my vision and cares. It really isn’t easy, because the mind likes to drift away and stare onto somebody else’s life. Facebook can be a time killer for that and then I make up stories in my head. Do you know this feeling of running away from yourself?
To be staying focused this time, I did something different. And I think, it’s something Ive been discovering especially in the last two years. I share my vulnerability with people I trust. Which gave me chance to connect with others on a deeper level.
Once opened up, life’s presented me encounters or friends, who Id not thought of and suddenly we're in a new phase of our relationship or bond. Like with the practitioners Im so grateful to work with.
In private sessions it organically happens, that we take time to talk about outcomes in the practice and how we actually can integrate them into daily life; based on our personal experiences and inspired by the vast knowledge of Yoga.
It’s somehow not surprising, that we often share thoughts, feelings and experiences related with fear. Fear is an emotion we like to avoid; and when we ignore it, it takes charge deeper in our unconsciousness. It rules, has an influence on our choices or keeps us stuck. So that we can’t take responsibility of our own life.
Fear’s big topic. Without going into it much deeper, what Ive witnessed in the conversations with precious practitioners and what I feel in my bones too:
We’re done with fear.
This moving change is about: breaking barriers and overcoming limitations, rising up and beginning a new cycle on a higher level of clarity, strength, compassion and joy.
Well, it’s bold to say, “done with fear”. It stills sits around the corner and gets inspired by the space, that changes leave behind. Unknown and Uncertainty. Fear tends to fill up the new clear space. But rather let you do it!
So I figured, taken from my personal practice, that “fighting against it”, doesn’t get me anything but frustrated.
Observing it, I found, helps me to acknowledge it, sit with it without letting it take control. Damn, it’s a daily back and forth. But it works.
There’s something else, that has been helping me to embrace the next big change. I don’t deny grieving. As exciting the new beginning looks, for all new inviting in, I’ve got to let go of something else. It hurts, regardless of what it is to release. Feeling a heavy heart. Shedding tears. Moving through pain.
Grieving’s is one of the practice I learnt very late in my life. Engaging with it consciously, I’ve found it can be: .
- strengthening and
- an act of gratitude.
That’s also a precious moment, when fear needs to wait outside my head and heart. Because, Im able to see, where I’ve come and that Im actually at this point, where I am today.
So I dare to let go. I’ll move forward. I’ll make my choices and trust, even on the days it’s challenging. Fear’s on board. It’s fine. But it’s not ruling me.
It seems a pretty wild mixture of emotions. Excitement and sadness. Faith and fear. Gratitude and Complains. Clarity and Confusion. Yet, I feel it’s well balanced and am glad to have been having a conscious experience in this moment of change. Im able to choose, build and enjoy.
So off I go! Are you joining me?
For now, I'd love to invite you again to the SMALL GROUP PROGRAM, that I launched in March this year. The details are here.
Im so happy to say, that we’re extending it to twice a week. We’ve got two spots left.
It takes places in Estoril, Tuesdays and Thursdays 10:15 - 11:45 hrs, Ashtanga Yoga Mysore Style combined with the elements of Private Teaching.
Tuesdays & Thursdays, 10:15a - 11:45a with max. 6 participants.
Residência do Sol
Avenida Marginal 8648, 2750-427 Cascais
Meeting at Lobby, 10:10a
75€ per month incl. IVA
When you’re interested, please reply to this eMail: firstname.lastname@example.org .
In any way, please know you’re always welcome to share your thoughts and questions with me or request details for Private Teaching.
Im an eMail away: email@example.com.
Or leave a comment below, and let me know how do you engage with change? What are your experiences with it and how can you relate it to your personal Ashtanga Yoga practice, if you’ve taken one on?
A high five and you’ve so got this, …
Can’t wait to keep sharing with you.
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