ARE YOU DONE WITH FEAR?

I can’t help, time feels like change for me. Not a subtle one.
A profound change. Yep. Another round.

Change requires an honest look onto my own life and Ive been making an effort, to learn to stay steady, to focus on my vision and cares. It really isn’t easy, because the mind likes to drift away and stare onto somebody else’s life. Facebook can be a time killer for that and then I make up stories in my head. Do you know this feeling of running away from yourself? 

To be staying focused this time, I did something different. And I think, it’s something Ive been discovering especially in the last two years. I share my vulnerability with people I trust. Which gave me chance to connect with others on a deeper level. 

Once opened up, life’s presented me encounters or friends, who Id not thought of and suddenly we're in a new phase of our relationship or bond. Like with the practitioners Im so grateful to work with. 

 

In private sessions it organically happens, that we take time to talk about outcomes in the practice and how we actually can integrate them into daily life; based on our personal experiences and inspired by the vast knowledge of Yoga. 

It’s somehow not surprising, that we often share thoughts, feelings and experiences related with fear. Fear is an emotion we like to avoid; and when we ignore it, it takes charge deeper in our unconsciousness. It rules, has an influence on our choices or keeps us stuck. So that we can’t take responsibility of our own life. 

Fear’s big topic. Without going into it much deeper, what Ive witnessed in the conversations with precious practitioners and what I feel in my bones too:  

We’re done with fear. 


This moving change is about: breaking barriers and overcoming limitations, rising up and beginning a new cycle on a higher level of clarity, strength, compassion and joy. 

 

Well, it’s bold to say, “done with fear”. It stills sits around the corner and gets inspired by the space, that changes leave behind. Unknown and Uncertainty. Fear tends to fill up the new clear space. But rather let you do it!  

So I figured, taken from my personal practice, that “fighting against it”, doesn’t get me anything but frustrated. 

Observing it, I found, helps me to acknowledge it, sit with it without letting it take control. Damn, it’s a daily back and forth. But it works. 

 

There’s something else, that has been helping me to embrace the next big change. I don’t deny grieving. As exciting the new beginning looks, for all new inviting in, I’ve got to let go of something else. It hurts, regardless of what it is to release. Feeling a heavy heart. Shedding tears. Moving through pain. 

Grieving’s is one of the practice I learnt very late in my life. Engaging with it consciously, I’ve found it can be: . 

  • rooting. 
  • strengthening and
  • an act of gratitude. 


That’s also a precious moment, when fear needs to wait outside my head and heart. Because, Im able to see, where I’ve come and that Im actually at this point, where I am today.

So I dare to let go. I’ll move forward. I’ll make my choices and trust, even on the days it’s challenging. Fear’s on board. It’s fine. But it’s not ruling me. 

It seems a pretty wild mixture of emotions. Excitement and sadness. Faith and fear. Gratitude and Complains. Clarity and Confusion. Yet, I feel it’s well balanced and am glad to have been having a conscious experience in this moment of change. Im able to choose, build and enjoy.

So off I go! Are you joining me?

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For now, I'd love to invite you again to the  SMALL GROUP PROGRAM, that I launched in March this year. The details are here. 

Im so happy to say, that we’re extending it to twice a week. We’ve got two spots left. 

It takes places in Estoril, Tuesdays and Thursdays 10:15 - 11:45 hrs, Ashtanga Yoga Mysore Style combined with the elements of Private Teaching.  

Tuesdays & Thursdays, 10:15a - 11:45a with max. 6 participants.

Residência do Sol
Avenida Marginal 8648, 2750-427 Cascais
Meeting at Lobby, 10:10a

75€ per month incl. IVA

When you’re interested, please reply to this eMail: roomformyself@gmail.com .

 

In any way, please know you’re always welcome to share your thoughts and questions with me or request details for Private Teaching. 

Im an eMail away:  roomformyself@gmail.com

Or leave a comment below, and let me know how do you engage with change? What are your experiences with it and how can you relate it to your personal Ashtanga Yoga practice, if you’ve taken one on?

A high five and you’ve so got this, … 

Can’t wait to keep sharing with you. 

Your Stef

 

P.S.: Maybe a friend of you has got big changes ahead. Please share this blog post! The Ashtanga Yoga practice may come right at the time as a special tool to tackle the challenges of change. When you like this post, hit like. I appreciate your support! 

THE LINK FROM GARDENING TO ROOM FOR MYSELF

This here is my first official newsletter.
Congrats! Or, in Zion's way, a fist bump and a "Good job, Mommy". 

In December last year I wrote my first newsletter to those I had the great opportunity to practice with. 

Three months ago, so after a whole lot working time behind the scene,  I decided to keep in touch with you with a monthly note in your inbox and hell, I did it all manual. Starting off with 20 eMails, then with 50 it become clear I needed to work with a program to support me. Having loved it to do it manually, because I was close to you and each person Ive come across, I do my best now to keep the connection with you through this newsletter too. 

Why do I wanna write? 

I truly believe, in the direct link from Ashtanga Yoga to our ordinary daily life. In combination with my personal experience as a student and friend, woman and mother of nowadays I feel the need to share and discuss it with you. Also, through interviews of practitioners I work with, I'll share how each person evaluates this jewel of a practice Ashtanga Yoga and how it has changed and keeps inspiring their life. 

Room For Myself I launched in the beginning of last year (blog post here).
Its about Ashtanga Yoga Private Teaching.

In this note you'll find further down, what it stands for linked to a tiny part of my story  and a current experiment with my son Zion in Gardening.

What could that have to do with Room For Myself? 

See here! 
School education in the Soviet part of Germany was under the influence of the country’s socialistic system. 

My favs were Sport and - you wouldn’t believe - Gardening. Yes, we were offered Gardening. The first four years of school at the age from 7 to 10 we learnt all about growing vegetables, fruits and herbs. 

Also my family used to take care of a garden in the back of our house. It was part of our culture. Well, there wasn't much in supermarket shelves either.  

I lost my joy in gardening during my studies at university and search for life and came humbly back to teach it now to my son Zion - in a small version. 

Why? Because, I’d love him to witness a natural cycle of life. One, that happens over and over again in our ordinary life too.

Here's Zion's project in Gardening :): 

Zion plants seeds in fertile soil. Then he needs to be responsible. He learns to take care and find the appropriate balance between effort, surrender and patience. 

When it’s time to water, when it’s time to protect, when it’s time for the nourishment of the sun, when it’s time to give space and wait for the sprouts to unfold. 

Together, we check the little sprouts of salad, carrots and broccoli every day. We’re in awe and love to witness natural growth and change. We find joy and share this moment sacredly. 

The continues process requires now, that Zion prunes the tiny field of sprouts, to give room for the ones to grow to the vegetable. It’s a difficult moment. Because it’s one of letting go and he griefs. Not all of the seeds we planted will make their way through. 

He may not be even successful with the sprouts we’ve left, but we'll keep going because, we want to enjoy our moments, the process and what we learn.  Zion trusts he may harvest some salad, carrots and broccoli and enjoy their gifts.

Most importantly, it happens all in STILLNESS. 

Being responsible, taking care, experiencing loss and yet keeping focused - Zion has been doing and experimenting it. With no validation from outside he stays consistent on his project. Day in and day out; and Im curious how he'll engage with the harvest and preparing earth for new seeds. I'll keep you posted. 

Planting vegetables with Zion, is for me a possible way to share with him cycles of life. In hope, he’ll learn naturally to be responsible, to loose, grief, let go and move on, grow his perseverance and celebrate his success to simple take a next step and so fulfill his life with substance.

Surely, life will teach him. But the seed is planted. 

For me, it was my personal Ashtanga Yoga practice, that taught me, what Im trying to share with my son - a natural cycle of life's phases. 

Plant a seed, take care of it with the best intention for yourself, learn what it takes to flourish it, let go of what would stop the process of growth, focus on what matters most, enjoy the moment, move on and plant the next seed. With time we're knowledgable, strong and humble enough to be able to take care of a garden.

I used to have a hard time in accepting the part of “letting go”. Stillness though used to be my dear friend. Now, after almost 10 years of practicing this ancient Yoga method, Ive learnt to surrender; or let’s say it’s become a way easier :) and has strongly contributed to my sense for inner freedom. 


Our soul is where we plant our seeds and cultivate what matters most in each of our lives.

A room for stillness and no disturbance, where we’re able to return at any given moment and renew, who we are and how we engage with life. That’s what Room For Myself stands for. 

The room for yourself, which needs to build, be taken care of and nourished compassionately. 
That, my friend, takes courage and will and adventure and surrender too. 
Which is, I quote my son "Really AWEsome". 

During the last 1 and a half year of specialising as a Personal Ashtanga Yoga Teacher for Room For Myself Ive shared the mat with inspiring women and men likewise, from different countries and backgrounds. Most of them have been in a challenging phase of their lives.

Yet experiences taught them, that the only way out is "in" - taking care of themselves and facing the current situation with what is. 

To be able to witness, how each practitioner benefits from the Ashtanga Yoga method is a blessing and I don't take that lightly. 

Ashtanga Yoga has become the source of my life and my intention is to help you engage with you in your personal Yoga experience.

Don't get me wrong, when you'll see the shot of me below. Ashtanga Yoga isn't about having the legs straight up in the air, nor put behind your head. By engaging in the postures as you are today, this practice is about your breath, about you and your life. The one that you're in and the one, you'd love to create, build and share from inside out.

On or off the mat, I invite you to join me along the journey of Room For Myself. 

I'd be grateful for you.

My schedule and the "really awesome" upcoming events are listed below.  
 


Now, Id love to hear from you. Which seed have you planted recently? Why and how is it going? 
What role does Yoga play in your life?

Can't wait to hear from you in the comments below! 

With love, water and patience. 

Stefanie

 

SCHEDULE

PERSONAL YOGA
Along the coastline Lx-Cascais
Mondays through Fridays 7:30 - 16:30 (except during the slots of Group Classes)
Saturdays 8a - 2p

Book your session here!

 

GROUP CLASSES
Yoga Lisboa, Lisbon   - Mondays & Fridays 12:30p - 2p
Residência do Sol   -  Classes resume in September 2017 with a new schedule

Reserve your spot here

 

EVENTS

ASHTANGA YOGA WORKSHOP WITH ONE OF THE GREATEST YOGIS NOWADAYS
ONE OF NOWADAYS MOST POWERFUL YOGIS @ Yoga Lisboa, 1-4 August 2017!

Quiet man PABLO PIRILLO from Argentina (KPJAYI Level 2) is coming to humbly share with us his profound experience in Ashtanga Yoga and the knowledge in philosophy. // What describes a Yogi? As a beginner or advanced practitioner hit going and join the workshop to learn from Pablo's vast body of teaching skills precisely adapted to your needs, drink from his wisdom in the conference and ask your questions to be inspired with love and devotion for your personal Yoga journey. // During Xico's time in India he learnt a lot from Pablo. They've become close friends. Its Xico's wish to hand on Pablo's teaching practice to YOU and into our community.

Drop an eMail to Xico: biosayogalisboa@gmail.com

 

YOGA & HEALTHY LUNCH
YOGA & HEALTHY LUNCH @Yoga Lisboa & Spinach prolonged for YOU - till 31 July! Your feedback means a lot to us. We've listened! Thank you! Beginners and regular practitioners are welcome. It’ll be accessible for everyone. And, here're is the BIGGEST CHANGE. You can do it - Yoga AND lunch - in ONE HOUR. Beautiful Magui (Spinach) will deliver your Pani Bread to the Yoga Studio. COUPON AVAILABLE FOR 10€ at Yoga Lisboa and Spinach. 

Drop a message: roomformyself@gmail.com to reserve your spot and order your pani :)! Very much looking forward to you!